The light of your love guides me

Monday, July 30, 2007 @ 22:38

sweet, no?

training today was the most slackest since we just wanted to recall the steps and do some admin stuff. we're so much closer now and i'm so so glad that sharifah and me have you girls to count on in times of need. thank you girls! Y

you've heard this millions of times but i'm gonna say it anyway. I MISS MY BOYFRIEND! nyahahahahha!

Saturday, July 28, 2007 @ 23:00

I welcome you inside my life
For what you do
Oh you make me happy
So very happy
Once again

Here I stand
So inspired
To take your hand
And never take for granted
What I was granted
Once again

I never thought I could love again
I never thought I'd let somebody else in
I never thought I could trust and then
Here I am in love once again

and that, is a soundtrack(Once Again by Frankie Jordan) from Win a Date with Tad Hamilton! which was screened on channel 5 just now. typical storyline BUT I LOVE IT! sometimes these fairytale-like movies make me happy cause it seems too good to be true. josh duhamel didnt make me melt like a candle somehow. he has a hot bod of course, just that i didnt like his famous actor and playboy character. kate bosworth is pretty and topher grace was just the sweetest. sweet is the word ok. lalalalala~

i am so missing the boyfriend since the minute i sent him off at changi. since it's field camp, he's probably digging a hole in the ground to sleep right now. heh. poor baby. 6 days of no sms-es, calls, whatever. hopefully he doesn't fall ill cause of the rain and all. we need a proper date where no one will disturb us. =(

my deepest condolences goes out to cipah. babe, i know you'll stay strong through all these. just pray for her ok? *hugs* lau pa sat/simpang bedok can always wait. hehe!

mccafe with the lovelies was lovely. more please girls? rai, you owe me pictures! and FAD! make sure you are present next time, sakit ke tak sakit. hehehehe evil eh aku? Y

makcik2 giler but i love.

went to the shop to help mama out today. apparently, there is this guy from MTM across the shop who one day(while i was at the cashier) asked my mum "cik, pekerja baru eh?". -_- riiiight. kelakar ok! and today, i went to help at the shop and not remembering about him la of course. i don't even know who he is cause when he passed that comment, i didn't know who said it as there were a few guys around. then my dad said the guy kept on walking from his shop to another shop just so that he can see me as he passes by. double -_-. so i saw him just now and he looks like he's in mid-twenties la and looks like DKK. my dad even said "suke la budak tu nari pekerja baru datang." triple -_- can?! hahahaha! sorry la whateveryournameis, i have a boyfriend already. ahahaha~

people around me seems to be falling ill with sore eyes. i scared~. ahhaha. don't infect me people! i just cant afford to have them now when MP is begging me to complete it. garh!

that fuzzy feeling in me when you look into my eyes

Tuesday, July 24, 2007 @ 22:16

to whom it may concern(1) :
i don't know what is with you. maybe you haven't had a taste of what me and him went through. there is just too many things that came in our way and yet you had to add to it. we pulled through those rough patches and even the good ones without you. maybe you wanted some credit for the good times but hey, what you did was minimal; too minimal that it doesn't really hit us. or maybe because you dont know the real story. do some soul searching and learn. learn about life, and not only what happens as how you see or what you saw but also through other's perspective. not knowing the real story and assuming this/that is just so shallow. open up that mind, please. and i think you try too hard to be like someone else. if somehow this smacked you hard in the face or bottom or wherever, well.... let me tell you this. may your plan fail. =)

to whom it may concern(2) :
it's such an unreasonable excuse that you gave. argh! *breathe sha breathe*

and its not like me to post issues here in my blog. but its been bugging me like a fly.

meeting the bestfriends tomorrow! i wanna loose myself, please.

i don't feel like going to school tomorrow(lagi-lagi ade meeting ngan tok). tell me it's not a good decision..

Monday, July 23, 2007 @ 12:14

consellation prize only? yeah i'm sad no doubt. because i've seen effort and that the girls enjoyed themselves on stage that day. ok maybe we did put hope on top 5 places. but then again, a competition is a competition; some lose and some win. so girls, it is okay. better luck next year perhaps? hahah. will upload pictures once i get hold of them. =)

thank you cipah

and i'm at my lowest these days. gosh, this blog has become so dull. heh.

where my girls at? i need you.

holding on, never let go.

Thursday, July 19, 2007 @ 15:05

i'm having issues with people. no, no that's so wrong. people are having issues with me. ahh betol!~ and im missing the boyfriend like so bloody much i can cry a full pail. only my pillow and ernie knows. haiz....

on a lighter note, i took an online IQ test(note: clickable) given to me by fish. hahahah it tickles me that some questions are kinda basic but we tend to forget these things. anyway, i scored 113 - which is average(almost an intelligent!) and most people will fall within this range. =D you should try cause it's fun la especially when you're in the lab eating carrot cake and trying to do your major project. hurhur.

off to bibik's again at 4 with diena and back to school for training. seemed like last week i did the exact same thing. heh. the competition is in 2 days' time and im starting to feel the tension. my right knee is giving a hell of a problem due to trainings every single day. how about 1st place for fiestari 2007, girls? hahahah. well, i hope to win at least something, say top 5 lah(since the rest are consellation prizes -_-). menari tu jangan macam lidi.....you lack character and feel; an advice from amin. hahahhaa. thanks amin. will work on that asap.

thesecrampsarekillingme. help!

pictures from Racial Harmony Day 140707 @ Kovan Hub..
(YANG TAK MENJADI! *sorry had to emphasize on that. haha*) are up at my multiply. blogger is being a bitch la with the photos!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007 @ 10:43

i've been on the search for good food(cheap, average or pricey) lately and i came up with a list of the places. well, not that they're new. i just haven't been to some of them. heh.

alfresco @ downtown east(love the satay and char kuay teow)
seoul garden (been decades since i last went there)
satay @ clarke quay
breeks cafe (i think they have more choices than swensens - for the same price too!)
east coast lagoon
secret recipe
makansutra gluttons bay @ esplanade
amiran's cafe

makan jom! *to the tone of JB mats*
sorry, couples' inside joke while at JB.

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anyways, the saturday show at kovan hub was CANCELLED! disappointment to the max okay. all of us came to school early just to dress up and make up. the biggest person on earth super fuckin wasted everybody's time. i tried hard not to cry cause i was super frustrated and tired. the moment my boyfriend called me, i cried like nobody's business in the toilet. abis makeup! hahah. to my SNT, dont be discouraged from what happened okay? and sharifah mahani, it's not your fault that this happens. thanks to both you and dee for helping us to siap even though in the end it didn't happen. haha! bad day i tell you. but mr yazid was sweet enough to rush after the pit and meet the hungry, cranky and bitchy me. i love you so~

there are just so many things going on at this point of time in my life. i take this as a test of my patience and will to stay strong for the people around me and also for myself. and im glad that through all these, i have the family to just be there for me, boyfriend to give me advices and strength and friends who care for me. love you people so much. what more can i ask for? those who are out to ruin my life are not worth being close to me. i shall just ignore you cause you don't fuckin exist in my life anymore =)

sorry for the vulgarities cause its just not me. eh tapi aku punye suke la! hurhur.

Thursday, July 12, 2007 @ 00:36

HI!
it's close to 1am. i should be sleeping cause i've had a looooooong and tired day *looks at cipah*
dance piece for competition is almost complete!! and im so so happy that the zapin piece is finally getting together cause it's this saturday! argh!! i just hope that we can really prove something. it's the freshies' first show(external lagik! lucky bitches. hehehe!) and definitely a first for most of us as well. we can do it girls! =)

anyway, i have lots to do on my list tomorrow. school in the morning, afternoon date to town with ain and evening date with diena to bibik's. nope, not for fun/shopping. haha i wish i could though. getting some stuff for SNT kesayangan. and then back to school again for training.

i just cant wait for the show to take place and get over and done with. i want to spend time with family and boyfriend this weekend. i miss nenekku at bukit panjang and the kiddies. hope to see them all on sunday. after the competition, it's time for my dosage of bestfriends. gosh i miss them so.

why even bother in the first place?
i'll hush for now.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007 @ 12:27

bah! busy busy week i had.

let's start off with that trip to {Asians Civilisation Museum(ACM)} over at Empress Place last tuesday with my Culture & Expression class. now tell me, when did you last had a class field trip? i swear i had a great time with two newly made friends, maisarah and rebecca - both of whom are only 18. they thought i was 18 too. hahahahaha! well, what can i say, i dont look 20 do i? to end the trip, our lecturer treated us all to ice cream potong. he's super weird. he told us that he doesnt understand why its called "potong". and mind you, he pronounces it as "pudong". yeah with yershortchinesetongue. so the malay students in my class were laughing at his silliness and we left him confused as he still is. huhuhu.

and dance tires the shit out of me. period. an external show and a competition. how more kecoh can it get?

i miss the boyfriend like a lot a lot. i am forrealll....~

to bestfriends, im sorry for not meeting with you guys lately. ive been super busy even my weekends are packed. lagi-lagi now i got saturday and sunday army boy. hehe. promise will make it up soon kays? miss korangs to the max ar =(

Monday, July 02, 2007 @ 22:54

bet yall have seen this before on teevee. had too and i just couldnt resist watching it for the second time. stumbled upon this video and decided to share. =) whatmore, with all my favourite people on stage all at one time, i just had to. especially that man who took of his jacket and bootyshake-d. haha. ok ok dont be too starstrucked now.

yes ive been missing in action for the past week due to school, trainings and whatnots. most importantly, the boy booked out on thursday evening and i fetched him and yusoff together with cipah. hehehe. i had butterflies in my stomach all day ok! so there he was, around 8pm appearing from the MRT station. he's thinner and a lil darker and of course, hot as hell in the green uniform. hahahahaha! so we had our must have LJS dinner and chilled for awhile before he sent me home.
friday was our date. we planned to watch TRANSFORMERS at marina square. so after buying the tickets, he randomly wanted to have our late lunch come dinner at pizza hut. his treat. heheheheh. spent a nice time at the same table as our previous pizza hut date and off we went to watch the movie. it was AWESOME! all those effects from start till end is wow ok, wow~. you people should catch it cause its worth your moolahs. after the movie, we walked around the place and spent quite some time in a cd shop where he bought for me a cd called Bossa Lounge. vair vair sexy and chilling jazz+brazilian music. he said i needed music while doing MP so i wont get stressed. hehe so sweet. thank you darling and iloveyoulikeafatkidlovecake. HEHE!
we ikea-ed the next day. kaki boleh putus cause we're both tired. i was from dance training and he, from beach rd getting all his necessary army stuff. i got a lil cranky at times. haha. but it was nice cause we just had to see each other. macam irresistable gitu. hahahaha!

my mission was to meet on all 4 days while he was out of camp and send him off to camp. so i did! on sunday i sent him off and we sempat berpasar-malam at pasir ris before he had to report at the end of the interchange with his other platoon mates. you can kill me in that uniform you know that? too much green i tell you. like, everywhere. some women even. and they looked so small, they could fly off like leaves if the wind is blowing too hard. hahaha.

mission accomplished! another 5 more days till i can see him again.
gosh people, sorry to bore you with the entry.
sharifah, you feel me baby? hahaha! ouh and thanks for the egg tart =)