The light of your love guides me

Wednesday, April 15, 2009 @ 22:08

Somewhere in my mind, somewhere deep in my heart, I'm still wishing for that one thing. I'm still wishing and hoping for the light at the end of the tunnel. My journey is not pitch-black; just a little bleak at this moment. I'm sure of what I want for my future, but at times, questions came running through my mind leaving me unsettled and asking the same thing through and through.

Time and again I ask myself "What do I really want for my future?".

Of course the list includes a house, a car, my own family, stability and to be in good health. But all that needs to start somewhere, doesn't it? I realise that my constant worry is money. I didn't really think the phrase 'money makes the world go round' would make sense until I needed to fend for myself, so much so that asking money from my parents makes me feel ashamed.

Maybe my time will come a little later than the rest of my friends. What frustrates me is that I wanna get things going soon. Achieve as much as I want now, on my own. Maybe I'm asking too much, too hard on myself. Haha.

Imissmyboyfriend.

I need him to knock some sense into me. Lol..

Too much Twilight series now. I'm at the 4th book now! Weeehooo!

Monday, April 13, 2009 @ 00:40

2 countdowns down, 2 more to go!

Well, I've been meaning to update, but the computer was down right after my previous post. Now it's back up for a few days already and hope it stays longer till I upgrade to a new one. It's end is almost near.

April has been fantastic so far, even for my birthday which I didn't expect much action from girlfriends! 2 surprises left me speechless. You girls got me this time, twice! And I thank you for that and for the effort/time spent, love and laughter we had.

Thursday was Ain, Aisyah and Mardhiah meet-up day. Did not expect anything at all. I was just eager to meet them after so long! Hahaha, pleasant surprise and we got company too. A cockroach and errr... two juveniles who kept asking, "Eh korang ok tak?" after the cockroach paid a visit. Read: underaged BOYS. What's up with them? Anyhoots, it was a great night out and name-tagging for the future. Don't forget the names girls. We would check if it's true in 10 years' time. Hehe.

And then Friday was even better! Go to my multiply for the picture for Friday and read the dialogues that follow. Hilarious I tell you! This one I was too touched. I couldn't get any words out of my mouth upon seeing the candles on the floor and the deco and the girls! All 4 of them under my void-deck throwing a mini party for me! I couldn't be happier. Thank you girls, again. You all know how much I love you and no words could describe it.

The boyfriend's birthday surprise too was fun. Amin and me, partners in crime =) I cooked at the boy's place and we all ate till we can't eat no more. Seafood pasta, Tom yam soup (fishballs, crabmeat, prawns, squid, clams, mussels), Campbell's soup (this one I cheat lah, abit. haha!), Honey black pepper roasted chicken and Rootbeer float. The boys went crazy after a while, too much food stuffed in them. His brothers joined in the fun of sabo-ing and cake-cutting. We all had fun, he enjoyed the mini party - that's most important. And I feel good! =)