Somewhere in my mind, somewhere deep in my heart, I'm still wishing for that one thing. I'm still wishing and hoping for the light at the end of the tunnel. My journey is not pitch-black; just a little bleak at this moment. I'm sure of what I want for my future, but at times, questions came running through my mind leaving me unsettled and asking the same thing through and through.

Time and again I ask myself "What do I really want for my future?".

Of course the list includes a house, a car, my own family, stability and to be in good health. But all that needs to start somewhere, doesn't it? I realise that my constant worry is money. I didn't really think the phrase 'money makes the world go round' would make sense until I needed to fend for myself, so much so that asking money from my parents makes me feel ashamed.

Maybe my time will come a little later than the rest of my friends. What frustrates me is that I wanna get things going soon. Achieve as much as I want now, on my own. Maybe I'm asking too much, too hard on myself. Haha.

Imissmyboyfriend.

I need him to knock some sense into me. Lol..

Too much Twilight series now. I'm at the 4th book now! Weeehooo!